I woke up.
June 19th 2020: Finally a fun day out! Scooter rides to the playground, followed by an afternoon at the pool, finishing up a Father’s Day project with the babes and ending with non other than Frozen 2.
The 66 days that felt like a year have come to and end. Cue the hallelujah music.
March started with her 6th birthday. A fun week with one of our dearest friends from Georgia that had to be cut short. It quickly turned into panic buying, trying to keep my (over 60) parents home (not an easy feat from FaceTime 4000 miles away) balancing my new role as teacher/maid/chef & “shhhh Daddy’s working from home.”
This lead to increasingly high anxiety that ultimately turned into depression. It was just too much. Some days it felt like the walls were caving in. I know I’m not alone on that. Held up in the house for any length of time will do that to a person. With the added stress of the unknowns it’s a recipe for disaster. Some days just making it to the kitchen to cook and get the 1026th snack was all I could do. Other days we painted, watched movies, drove around, (hitting up the Starbucks drive thru was like Christmas morning) we rode bikes around the neighborhood. Some days getting the mail was a highlight. Regardless this isn’t me. I’ve never had these feelings. Sure I go through a low from time to time but that’s life. This was different. It would come over me like wave nausea except I didn’t feel like throwing up. I felt like a hot blow dryer had been aimed at my body and then my limbs went numb ending with crying, lots of crying usually in the closet. Lots of naps too. Thankfully it only lasted a few weeks. My circle although far; we leaned on each other like never before. I am so grateful for them.
I was starting to hear other states opening or ones that hadn’t even shut down. Figures less than a year into our California dream so to speak we were still on full
lockdown. Zero sign of opening. That’s when the sadness was replaced with angry.
I woke up.
I began researching what the other side was saying. The side we are not suppose to talk about, the side were made to believe only Trump supporters sit on. Thanks to mainstream media. The side that for me, was actually making the most sense.
Well here I am.
I may not have organized the kitchen drawers or the kids closets but I can say I did my research. I looked at it from a different angle. I read articles, I watched other news channels. I looked at what other countries were doing. I spent some late nights going down some pretty scary rabbit holes as well. No I don’t believe it all, that’s where Critical thinking comes in. I took all of this research and made up my own mind on the virus and then everything that has followed.
Quarantine was hard. One of the hardest times for me. In the end it was meant to be. I haven’t felt this clear headed in a long time.
Thank you to MSM for waking me up.
Your plandemic worked.
Below is something I read during quarantine. It started to resonate with me.
“I'm sorry but anyone that thinks that social distancing is a good idea for the next few years, actually wants to be micro-chipped or thinks that a 'benevolent' dictatorship is for the good of humanity, I don't want to give that point of view any of my energy. I am a free Human Being and if you want to stay home, stay home. That's your sovereign right to choose. If you want to wear a mask, wear a mask. That's your sovereign right to choose. If you want to avoid large crowds, avoid large crowds. That's your sovereign right to choose I am not required to descend into poverty for YOU. I am not required to abstain from human contact for YOU. I refuse to participate in "quarantine life" until there's an unsafe, untested vaccine released in eighteen months. I refuse to receive a vaccine to make others feel more safe. That's my sovereign right to choose! If you're convinced the vaccine is safe and effective, you can get it yourself. Some of you are allowing fear and policies devoid of scientifically accurate data to destroy the country you live in and ruin your life. We have a constitutional right to take risks. Life is full of bacteria and viruses, many of which spread before symptoms manifest and after they subside. We have a sovereign right to receive OR refuse vaccines. The data was inaccurate at best; purposely overblown to justify government overreaction at worst. Stop allowing the government to destroy: The food supply; Small businesses; Medical autonomy; Access to healthcare; Mass gatherings; Privacy rights; Our mental health & freedom When the "new normal" is filled with starvation, depression, suicide, child abuse, domestic violence, imprisonment, governmental spying, and pure DESPERATION, the "virus" is going to look preferable to the world you helped facilitate. I'm going to turn this around on people from now on. Those that say I'm (or anyone that supports this) putting money over lives by wanting the country back open for business... Hear this: -YOU don't care about the people that will kill themselves out of hopelessness -YOU don't care about small businesses that'll close their doors (THEIR LIVELIHOOD) permanently -YOU don't care about the children/women/men that'll be victims of domestic abuse -YOU don't care about people defaulting on their mortgages -YOU don't care about bills going unpaid by families with ZERO income right now -YOU don't care about people wondering where their next meal will come from -YOU don't care about the people that'll lose their sobriety and slip back into alcoholism -YOU don't care about the people that will starve -YOU support the inevitable looting that'll take place -YOU don't care about anyone that's murdered the longer this shut down goes on -YOU don't care about people's mental health -YOU don't care about the children that DO need teachers and educators to guild & educate them -YOU don't care about the economy crashing down around us -YOU DON'T CARE. -YOU love your shackles -YOU are pathetic, begging your leaders for MORE shut down and MORE regulations and MORE handouts I will NOT tolerate another person telling me that I don't care about lives. I care about the situation in its entirety. But YOU don't care about any of that so... YOU stay home. YOU wear a mask. YOU live in fear. I on the other hand will not. As is my soverign right to choose NOT TO!”
Thank you for stopping by! Remember these are my opinions. You may not feel this way and thats ok. That IS what makes this country great.